stineeey

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 22:49:42 GMT

Im scared, paranoid, sudden depression, serious amnesia, stressed out, heart attack, and i-dunno-whatelse.
I need a hug!

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 20:09:59 GMT

Clazziquai; always their fan (:

...toldyouimboredoflj.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 14:46:32 GMT

Think im bored of livejournal.

a f t e r m a t h

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 03:44:49 GMT

I feel like i should update cuz exam's over but i dunno what to write about cuz i felt like it was holiday after chem p1 which after that had a stupid 1 week break to physics p1 so i thought it was ridiculously long and i had alittle fun already thus the official break wasn't felt as great as it should be and my god i just realized im so lazy to even type commas and fullstops cuz it either needed the 'shift' key or shifting my hands which i placed oh so comfortably on the edge of the table hence anyway i shall update soon with piccas and all and so far i've only done a few things or so and i can't wait for ktv screaming and next round of night craze.
My head's still spinning from last night; hangover sucks.

2papersleftforthisweekyo!

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 10:27:40 GMT

and I'll always be a fan of his artwork.

holycow

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 05:06:29 GMT

My name is Lai Hui LIn. Centre Index: 3030/0293
Dear A'level markers that's gonna mark my 9740 Math paper,
To God I pray, I beg you, bless me,
A pls A pls A pls!!!
I'll come over to Cambridge and kneel down if thats what it takes.

lastspeech

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 04:56:06 GMT

Just a short break here as I print these shits. This is the most crucial part of my life and yes most of you didnt know my heart is pumping like a machine running at 1km per second. I would like to thank every one who sent sweet messages and left me little gifts to push me. It meant alot alot alot, and especially my good ol' friend who always never fail to suprise me with things that make me smile. Yes i cried, touched, by every one's care and concern & maybe the pressure. You all are my motivation as I pinned my last hope to mug, the last week to the start of A's. Im scared to the very wits, nervous & filled with cold sweat, but with all of you, I think i can make it through. Thank you (:

t h e t r u t h

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 07:21:22 GMT

Last night, every doubts I had were cleared. And now I'm no longer living under lies & betrayal.
Because of you, I felt stupid.
Because of you, I feel that what I had with you were totally worthless.
Because of you, I feel so dumb to even think that our friendship was even true.
All along I've been lied on, being stepped on, being the dumb person who even spent 3years thinking how to treasure you.
Because of you, I doubt every little thing that I had, happy memories turned bitter, sour.
Because of you, those stupid childish jealousy you've had,
I had to waste so much time thinking what the freakin' hell I've done wrong.
All the last posts I wrote, were refering to one person whom I thought I could trust in the past.
Well, I could no longer look at you the same way, you know what you did.
The scar that you left behind, you have no idea how big it is.
Because of you, your personal selfish insults and criticisms,
I couldn't bring my heart to trust friends which I knew were innocent.
I'm left behind, bleeding with hatred and disppointment.
But what's the point? You are no longer worth my thoughts, time nor tears.

Goodbye to you, our past was just a lie.
(p.s. I bet, that you wouldn't even admit it's your fault. You would push your luck, saying that whatever you said was true. please, you ain't perfect either, you are far worse than I am. It's time to grow up.)

w h a t s n e w

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 14:34:51 GMT

I know I told myself not to come online, I've defy my own rules. Just for awhile, been cutting back on a lot already.
Here's a few piccas updates, to let you know I'm still alive. I promise to be a good girl after this :)

peejayceeassbays@nic's; shock of my life

study sessions

buffet with the people who claim to go on diets but failed terribly, cmi lah

Remember the times when you go fishing with your dad? Yeah this little boy was leaving some good o'l memories of his childhood.
But weren't we holding a book on our hands while we wait? This boy was holding on to a psp + Itouch. Modern shit.

the place where I found myself sitting quietly & dream for an hour, enjoying the breeze with monkeys.

and lastly, stayover@blur king's. A freakin' tired weekend mixed with intense pressure.
I'm grateful for having friends who were able to bear with my whinings during those times. You have no idea.
Time to mug. Byebye & seeyou hopefully soon :)

h y p o c r i t e s y u c k!

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 17:49:38 GMT

sometimes i really cant stand such two-face creatures who try to act nothing has happened but yet backstabs you behind your back. seriously your actions are annoyingly stupid and childish. just say whatever you're unhappy with in front of my face cuz im not afraid to voice my opinions on you. no one's perfect, not even you. haven't you heard its unhealthy to bear grudges? yeah your lifespan will just shorten by 10years if you continue talking behind people's backs. and anyway you're living in such a world of lies which no one can ever save you from. stop beating around the bush and get a hold of yourself before even pinpointing on others. such a freakin' hypocrite, ought to slap yourself really. and im not just refering to any particular person, its to all hypocrites living in this world im talking about. you should grow up and learn what friendship, relationship & whatever-ship is about. I ain't saying im good at it either, at least i dont lie & act like such a fake person like you did. i feel sad about the low-life you're living in.
finally i can sleep in peace after voicing out my inner thoughts. good night to the sheeps i've been counting on & byebye.

l a s t w o r d s

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 09:04:01 GMT

Hello! I screwed up my mids & hence have decided to isolate myself from every entertainment device except of course my mobile & mp3. This is so contradicting as I've already planned to watch Hello God from kbs tonight but still only 2 episodes left k. I really have to control myself. You see me online please nagg me till I cannot tahan. You see me on facebk please feel free to threaten or point a gun at my face. You see me happily enjoying myself or slacking please scold & scream the number of days left to A's. I need discipline so please be my jail warden & torture yourstruly.
Family outing, haptic mission, shining inheritance, East of eden, love letter, we got married, A love to kill, 1D2N, the hundreds of movies in the hard disk that are screaming & asking me to watch all can wait till i finish my stupid papers.
Please contact me through my hp from now onwards. Dear livejournal, maybe i'll see you in 4months time. Byebye you who i contact only through msn, byebye laptop, byebye youtube, byebye civilisation! It's time to say hello to my notes and the only way to enjoyment is to love them & keep them with me 24hours a day. Seriously bye dear readers & seeyou! :)

t h e u n a t u r a l

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 19:08:58 GMT

For family movie, the nutty siblings decided to watch 'The Haunting In Connecticut'.
Nb why the crap did I ever agree to it? I doubt can sleep tonight. Shit ass.

t h e t r u t h

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 17:52:31 GMT

Sometimes I wonder what's my purpose in life, my purpose of studying & getting an education, my purpose of even living in this cruel world.
And I realized in shock; that I really, absolutely have no answer.

"And then life happens, times change."

u n w o r t h y

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 19:55:03 GMT

t h e e m p t y r o o m

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 18:52:44 GMT

I felt great today.
My only regret was not having a picture taken of myself along with these windows. They seemed lonely.

u p d a t e s o o n- e d i t e d

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 15:50:42 GMT

I tried posting the pic that I liked most, but dunno why can't be seen. Replaced it with this but still ain't bad.

Ssangchu :DDD thanks huimin

I've been having my mood swings lately, maybe cuz of my H1paper which I never thought I would ever care for it. LOL
Today's scheldue was totally ruined, but it was satisfying.
Nevertheless, Raph we will meet soon before you even enter the land of monstrousity.

r e c o l l e c t i o n

Sun, 31 May 2009 19:02:58 GMT

These were my favourites. I used to watch jap dramas so much, and I still do love them. They bring back memories; was still a little kid back then.
You can click on that little icon on the top right to listen the fuller versions. Don't think you peeps will enjoy but im just putting this here for own entertainment. It spells treasure to me :D

y o-a h-y o! y o-a h-y o-a h-y o

Fri, 29 May 2009 12:25:56 GMT

THISPOSTISONLYPICTURESWITHDESCRIPTIONS:

Monday:
Entertained myself during math, and I found this utterly hilarious for some weird reason. Abel Drey Huimin thought I was crazy.

Huda's 19th short sweet celebration

Wednesday:
Recollection of the times when I transfered all my frustration into playing horn. You could imagine how harsh my sound was.
I bid goodbye to my 3yrs of bandlife, Finally!!! And I really do mean it.
Please pardon those blue faces. It's used to replace mine. Hah

Thursday:
I found pictures of my sis and I've got nth better to do but edit them. It was laughable. I have a weird sense of humour.

Friday:
Suppertimes later (:
Bought 3 stuffs within this week, or rather in 3days, which made me feel absolutely broke. Won't arrive till next week. :(

w e d d i n g a t s h a n g-a-l a n g

Sun, 17 May 2009 16:24:18 GMT

It was one crazy night not to be forgotten. Caught up with cousins and promised my precious childhood friend a tour in June.
I can't believe I survived the whole dinner half drunk, and I ended up home twice as drunk.

h a l l e l u j a h

Sat, 16 May 2009 03:37:04 GMT

And to some of you out there: Nb stop copying the way I type!

j u s t n o t m e a n t t o b e

Fri, 15 May 2009 17:10:41 GMT

A crappy week slacking around, Im really a bad kid. Been cramming alot with carbs this week, byebye health and welcome to fats world. Much awaited cousin's wedding later, which I only knew today HAH. And it's another round of fats time.
I could imagine Huimin & Audrey shaking their heads and screaming: "Stop eating!!!"
Supper was great, but I might just gonna miss the helluva greatness time at Chinatown with the dudes later, pitiful pitiful. :(

Shakespare said, "Journeys end & love is meeting."
and maybe our hearts are mend as one.

m a y b e

Sun, 10 May 2009 16:27:48 GMT

We 3 sibings cleaned like mad this afternoon, however Grandaunt's arrival somehow ended up to be a false alarm.
Study session was unproductive. Yang can be incredibly hardworking when it comes to drawings.
It would be rare to see our dear Ct's generous side later, bet his heart is screaming with pain as he gives out 250bucks hoho!

w h a t w e d o a t 1 2 3 0

Thu, 07 May 2009 16:56:23 GMT

I think me & sis are crazy. We just went downstairs 5 times just to throw our stuffs in the middle of the night.
Then we started playing those little seed crackers that pops real loud when its thrown on to the floor. We were making such noises that even people from other blocks were staring at us from their windows. Heh great fun we had.

n a h c r a p

Thu, 07 May 2009 12:09:46 GMT

I've never been at this time where I'm stuck in a situation for making people get mad at me.
But really it sucks to have some constantly nagging you for what you've actually tried not to do and then gossips behind your back while acting smiles in front of your face. We all know how she talks, she can just go on for how long she cares but I'm just surprised how people could act so nice while her heart is actually burning.
Also, it's not great to know how little you actually meant to your friends. Maybe it's just a little action that people usually don't bother and maybe all of us weren't in the mood but still it somehow affected every thing that I thought I once knew. Despite that, It's really disappointing to know that I'm not even worth the time, not even just a few minutes. The past and present change because of our ignorance and pride.

Anyway, enough of that stupid personal crap and happy belated birthday to Ang Hui Min and Pang Da Yang.
Impromptu celebrations and grateful wishings :D
Much stuffs awaits as I'm finally out of my cage!

a n g e r

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 17:28:26 GMT

I have my fair share of patience but it has its own limits.
Sometimes your actions really just ticks me off.
Your mouth is like a freaking loud speaker that keeps blabbering & fcuking irritating.
Please lah, take a look and reflect on yourself before you even start on others.
Whatever that is going on with me is seriously none of your business. Really, stop it, enough, just Shut up.